The pathway is broken
And The signs are unclear
And I don't know the reason why You brought me here
But just because You love me the way that You do
I'm gonna walk through the valley
If You want me to
Cause I'm not who I was
When I took my first step
And I'm clinging to the promise You're not through with me yet
so if all of these trials bring me closer to you
Then I will walk through the fire
If You want me to
It may not be the way I would have chosen
When you lead me through a world that's not my home
But You never said it would be easy You only said I'd never go alone
So When the whole world turns against me
And I'm all by myself
And I can't hear You answer my cries for help
I'll remember the suffering Your love put You through
And I will go through the valley If You want me to
And The signs are unclear
And I don't know the reason why You brought me here
But just because You love me the way that You do
I'm gonna walk through the valley
If You want me to
Cause I'm not who I was
When I took my first step
And I'm clinging to the promise You're not through with me yet
so if all of these trials bring me closer to you
Then I will walk through the fire
If You want me to
It may not be the way I would have chosen
When you lead me through a world that's not my home
But You never said it would be easy You only said I'd never go alone
So When the whole world turns against me
And I'm all by myself
And I can't hear You answer my cries for help
I'll remember the suffering Your love put You through
And I will go through the valley If You want me to
my heart has been broken time and time again over the past two years. my heart breaks every single time i think of a child never knowing the Father's love for them. never knowing love at all in some cases. my heart is broken when i think of how blessed i have been and continue to be, when there are precious children of God growing up in neighborhoods where drugs and gangs are more prevalent than the childhood they should be experiencing. the Lord put common ground montgomery in my life and my heart was shattered. the Lord is using the inner city and urban ministries to show me that i am not called to be comfortable. i am not called to be so blessed and do nothing about it when 1 in every 4 children in the neighborhood i am working in will be dead by the time they are 20.i have not been called to be prideful and content with the life i have been given. i have been called by the Father to use this desire He has given me to bring glory to HIS name and be servant of HIS. and most of all i am called to LOVE. to love God and love people, ALL people.
but yet i find myself questioning, "Father, why in the world me?" why would i ever choose to go to gang, drug, and crime infested neighborhoods, putting my safety and well being at risk. then the Lord lovingly reminds me that this life is NOT mine. i am not my own. i am HIS to be used as a vessel for Him and to show others the love that He gave and sacrificed on the cross for every single one of His children. HE is breaking me of the pride and arrogance in my own life and for that I give Him all the praise. WE ARE ALL HIS!
Matthew 10:34-38 reads, "Do not think that I have come to bring peace to the earth. I have not come to bring peace, but a sword. For I have come to set a man against his father, and a daughter against her mother, and a daughter-in-law against her mother-in-law.And a person’s enemies will be those of his own household. Whoever loves father or mother more than me is not worthy of me, and whoever loves son or daughter more than me is not worthy of me. And whoever does not take his cross and follow me is not worthy of me."
the Lord constantly reminds me through this verse that there will be times in this life that in order to follow Christ and His will you may walk seemingly alone. we all think we know this truth... we learned it in youth group right? but do we really analyze what this means in our lives. do we ever truly fathom what it would mean to give up everything for HIM. even starting small, for me, it means following HIM into the unknown, the uncomfortable, and the place where most of the people I love fear. do we ever truly realize what it means to never walk alone but to have Christ right beside us every single step of the way. we hear it, but do we believe it. do we truly believe that no place we go will ever be away from the Father.
I pray that every single day the Lord breaks my heart for what breaks His. I pray that for all of us, that we are never afraid to trust the unknown to an ALL-KNOWING God. The Lord states that whoever does not take up their cross and follow him is NOT worthy of him. I pray that my desire in life is to always please the Father first and spread the incredible mercy, grace and love He has shown me to those who are so desperately in need.
I pray that every single day the Lord breaks my heart for what breaks His. I pray that for all of us, that we are never afraid to trust the unknown to an ALL-KNOWING God. The Lord states that whoever does not take up their cross and follow him is NOT worthy of him. I pray that my desire in life is to always please the Father first and spread the incredible mercy, grace and love He has shown me to those who are so desperately in need.
my prayer tonight is that we never settle for being comfortable or stagnant. i pray that as children of the most High King we trust in the Father and we GO. i pray that the cry of each and every one of our hearts tonight is "HERE I AM, LORD SEND ME." send me to the broken, the lonely, the orphans, the drug addicts, the prostitutes, the murderers, and the children- all of whom are children of the Lord and so faithfully loved by HIM. Father give us a love like YOURS and let us truly desire to "walk through the valley if you want us to"
In Him.
